At this very moment, loneliness was with me. I honestly don't know what to do. I got nowhere to run. I am lost. Lost in the world where melancholy overpowers my whole being. Frustrated. That's how I describe myself. There was disturbance in me. Love should have been my shoulder, my strength and my armor. But I guess, it's only me and myself that is left.
My core has been cut open. I felt it being ripped out of my rib cage. A hole has been punched through it. There's too much pain. Too much weight to carry.
"Where did I messed up?" --The most excruciating question I hate to ask myself time and again. Satisfying answers are all that I am asking for. Peace of mind -- That's what I really need. I don't know where am I supposed to cling on. I have the fear of trusting anyone.
Sometimes, we really give too much, that we forget how much we lose. I wish I was strong. I couldn't face reality for I am weak. I couldn't follow through my life prospectus anymore.
I need a new start. I must find time. A time to search for the happiness that was once lost. 'Coz I know happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times. That's why I must turn on the lights for the reason that the illumination of those lights will help me gain myself again.
I know that love is all we have and it is the only way we can help each other.
Yes, I am hoping but this time, with a fragile hope.
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