Favorite Line :)

I'm happy being single
I can do what I want
No consequences, no pressure then :)


Sometimes, you should learn to let go and take the risk.
Life is much beautiful outside the comfort zone.

It is better not to mind the things that depresses you, cause it
only makes you weak inside and out. There's a lot of thing you can you can give your time into.
Don't get stuck w/ the things that may ruin your day..

FACTS ABOUT "JOH"

Fashionable,

thoughtful,

has a phobia on something :),

sometimes it's hard to approach her coz we know that she is busy

                                                          -avon,18

At first I thought she's a kind of flirt :)

She's pretty and good in terms of being ate to us.

                                                        -lian,18     

 God fearing,cheerful and responsible.

                                                        -aimee, 22    

      

Por-ey Family

Uneasy. That defined me during the first day of my high  school life. I entered room "St. Frances" and blood rushed through my veins so fast I felt so afraid to take a glance around the room. I was a part of the first year class 2005-2006 anyway, but what I felt during those times were different.

Since I was then called "manang" in my room, I always thought that my classmates would actually tag me that way. Days went but smoothly and the feelings I had at the start slipped away. I saw respect, understanding, cooperation, sensitiveness, and belonging in each of my classmates. A big thanks to my family of 20 in my room. I was able to adjust to high school life and found myself as their company.

Years passes, from first year to third year is just a matter of short moments that will end the precious times and years of painful struggles.  Moving on from the past experiences encountered, facing and adapting to the present and preparing oneself for future challenges. Being a fourth year vincentian student entails great responsibility in actions we take and word we utter for it is indeed a privilege to belong to this community.

Who would forget my batch 2008-2009 when almost of the class were naughty and noisy? Room St. Peter has always been our classroom.

Regret is what I felt about the many times I failed to recognize the presence of my friends in High School. I don't really know how to repay my por-ey classmates specially in our family who are treated me as a sister for the many times they would listen to every painful story I have about my life.

I don't really know how to tell them they actually make me feel loved. They stand by me every time I feel tears rolling down my cheeks and tell me they care.

My family of por-ey  might have noticed how grateful I am to have them  and I want to tell them specially my GURL FRIENDS  that they make my perspectives in life. I am a better person because of them; I recognize my mistakes and humbly accept the weaknesses I have because they can tell me honestly how I am behaving.

I won't forget my high school life in St. Vincent Catholic School.. .....never

A one on one interview with Ms. In LOVE

.. What makes you the perfect match?

Having the same interests and almost the same characteristics makes the both of us a perfect match. Most people say that we look alike that's why we are perfect for each other and people even tell us that we are soul mates. But they don't know, there's a much deeper reason why we consider ourselves as the perfect match. We are unlike any other couples who always shows their sweet affection publicly. Yes, we are couples but beyond ordinary. Because for me and mark, we are more like best friends--more than you could imagine.

How do you keep each other in love?

Actually, we've been to many trials that almost broke us apart. Almost all relationships experience the same problems but has different techniques on how to solve those problems, of course. For us, specially when we argue, we always talk about things first before deciding and making a step to what's gonna happen next. We always try to understand each other no matter how hard the situation is just to keep the spark between us and our love for each other alive. :)


How do you make your relationships fresh and exciting?

We've been together for a year and a month. Everybody knows that still ain't a long time for a relationship to last. Some relationship are only exciting at first because as time passes by, their excitement for each other fades away immediately. I stand corrected:) 

As for me and MARK, it's funny how he still acts like he is courting me whenever we already reached this stage wherein we already know each other's weaknesses, flaws etc. It's like vice versa. The more our relationship lasts longer, the more it becomes fresher and more exciting. :)  

CONFESSIONS

Other side of being "JOH"

I am the type of person na "mapagmahal, malambing pero kapag nasaktan tahimik lang". Lately,, "nakikita ko yung sarili ko na papunta na sa change na hindi ko in-e-expect mangyari. I was then called "manang" by my friends until I realized "matagal na pala akong ......lost"(from being kikay to losyang)....
So big thanks to all my friends, now I can say, I'm now on the process of moving on...


Dealing with the word "B-U"

Speaking of "moving-on", I can tell you honestly gaano ako nasaktan w/ my ex-boyfriend but  I took it as positive naman. As what my kuya told me " kailangan daw naming itanim ang aming mga sarili sa panibagong lupa upang kami ay muling lumago". Well, tama siya dahil nalanta ako kaya kailangan kong ipakita na mag b-bloom ulit ako ..And of course I will never be a bitter person just because of Love.  

"So to all my friends out there who experienced heart ache, don't get sad if he/she left you because we will still receive a much  better and more special someone that will make our lives worth living..  "

At Sa Susunod Nating Pagkikita

Unang araw ng pasukan, hindi pa kita nakikita. Tanging pangalan mo pa lang ang aking naririnig nguni't ako'y nagtaka kung bakit iba ang tibok ng puso ko. Ako'y napaisip at napatanong sa sarili, "Sino ang lalaking iyon?". Nang ako'y pinatawag upang ipakilala sa'yo, ako'y kinabahan at nataranta. Iniwan ko ang aking kasama upang puntahan ka. Sa koridor na tapat ng T.L.E room tayo'y unang nagkita. Nagkatinginan ang ating mga mata na tila ba'y may malalim na kahulugan. Kung sa tutuusin, ako'y madaldal at palakaibigan ngunit nang ikaw ay kaharapin, hiya at pag-aalinlangan ang aking nadama.

Habang isinusulat ko ang artikulong ito, ako'y napapaisip sa mga alaala natin. Hindi ko makakalimutan ang intrams natin noon. Paano ba kasi? Tayo ang laman ng Edication Booth. X-mas parti, kaarawan mo iyon, isang masayang pagdiriwang. Naaalala mo pa ba ang mga ligaw tingin mo sa akin? Ang mga love letter na it ginagawa mo para sa akin ngunit itinatanggi mong gawa mo sa tuwing sinasabi sa akin ng pinsan mo? Naaalala mo pa rin ba ang mga linyang ito,"Laos ako eh!"? Sa tuwing sinasabi mo iyan, nalulungkot ako at nalulumbay sabay sabing, "Torpe ka nga.". Nakakatawang isipin at balik-balikan ang ating mga alaala. Dati rati ang sungit sungit ko sa'yo kasi tingin ka ng tingin sa akin. Pero bakit nung minsan nang malaman kong may gusto ka sa isa nating klasmeyt o para lang pagselosin ako? Sinabayan pa eto ng pagpapapnsin ng isa nating klasymeyt sa'yo at mas lalo akong nainis sa'yo. Hindi ko namalayan na nahuhulog na pala ang loob ko sa'yo at tanging selos lang ang nararamdaman ko.

Walang araw at hindi natatapos ang isang linggo na hindi tayo tinutukso ng ating mga klasmeyt maski nga mga nakakatanda at nakababata sa atin pati na rin ang mga guro at ang direktor ay lagi tayong niloloko. Alam kasi ng buong klase na may pagtingin ka sa akin ngunit hindi ko na iyon binigyan ng pansin sapagkat alam kong pangarap mong maging isang pari.

Dalawang araw bago tayo magpaalam sa isa't isa, April 06, 2005, nagtapat ka sa akin ng iyong nararamdaman. Ako'y nagulat ngunit imbis na saya at tuwa ang naramdaman ko, lungkot at paghihinagpis ng puso ko ang aking nadama. Isang taon din tayong nagkasama sa Saint Vincent Catholic School. Ang mga alaala, kasiyahan, tawanan at kalungkutan ay ang mga karanasanag hindi ko makakalimutan sa loob ng paaralan.

Sana ngayong malayo ka na sa akin, ang tanging hiling ko lang ay matupad ang lahat ng mga pangarap mo. At sana sa susunod nating pagkikita ay isa ka ng ganap at mabuting pari.

My Fragile Hope

At this very moment, loneliness was with me. I honestly don't know what to do. I got nowhere to run. I am lost. Lost in the world where melancholy overpowers my whole being. Frustrated. That's how I describe myself. There was disturbance in me. Love should have been my shoulder, my strength and my armor. But I guess, it's only me and myself that is left.

My core has been cut open. I felt it being ripped out of my rib cage. A hole has been punched through it. There's too much pain. Too much weight to carry. 

"Where did I messed up?" --The most excruciating question I hate to ask myself time and again. Satisfying answers are all that I am asking for. Peace of mind -- That's what I really need. I don't know where am I supposed to cling on. I have the fear of trusting anyone.

Sometimes, we really give too much, that we forget how much we lose. I wish I was strong. I couldn't face reality for I am weak. I couldn't follow through my life prospectus anymore. 

I need a new start. I must find time. A time to search for the happiness that was once lost. 'Coz I know happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times. That's why I must turn on the lights for the reason that the illumination of those lights will help me gain myself again.

I know that love is all we have and it is the only way we can help each other.

Yes, I am hoping but this time, with a fragile hope.